What am I going to do?

There is too much on my plate right now, and I felt some of it all slipping onto the table today. I had to give a speech, one that I offered to do on my own, no one asked me. And of course I freaked out and it took all my energy out for the day. I've been exhausted ever since as if I haven't slept but I have. And now I have all these blog posts to write, emails to respond to, and a baby to take care of as Peter has a ton to do as well. And I'm losing my mind again. I feel like I'm right back at the beginning of Andy's life when I was a basket case. I don't think I'm depressed in the same way, just very very overwhelmed. And I am so overwhelmed I can't get myself to do the stuff that would make it all better.

I've determined my real problem is Christmas. I have to figure out what to get everyone, even Peter's family. And I have to buy the stuff, figuring out when to buy it, whether to ship it myself or to have someone else ship (because of a discount and a crappy website, these simple things are so much harder), what picture I want for my Christmas cards (we took the photos today), what website to use to get those cards printed, and I have to address envelopes and send them out. Bleh. And soon I'll be decorating, I'm gone the first weekend of December at a conference, and I feel like the weekends I have free are gone forever.

Maybe my real problem is my upstairs neighbors who were kind enough to cut wood outside of Andy's room to wake him from his first nap and to drop large objects on the floor to wake him from his second nap. So now I have a very fussy baby and I'm a very fussy mommy and I'm ready to hide in the closet.

I'm sorry for the rant, but right now I really need a date and I still don't have a babysitter. How do people ever get the energy and drive to do this a second time?