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June 30, 2006
Take this week and shove it
Let me tell you, last week was great. I had everything under control, I had finally gotten a hang of all this baby nonsense. Those who think it's hard? They are crazy! Having a baby is a piece of cake.
Hahahahaahahaha, the joke was so on me.
This week has by far been the worst one yet. Suddenly I can't deal with his crying (as in I can barely keep myself from staying in the room). He is fussier then normal, and I am much weaker than normal.
I think I have post partum. That is hard for me to say, but this entire week I have been depressed. In fact, I have not been this depressed in years, like since 9th grade. The worst part is that I don't know why I am depressed. Maybe because I don't get more than 20 minutes from him for a nap unless he's sleeping on top of me? And he will only sleep on me a little, so he's tired and screaming and I don't know how to get him to sleep. Or maybe it's because he's waking up earlier in the morning so I have more time with him without him napping. Or maybe it's because he's been 2 1/2 months old FOREVER!
No matter the reason, I really need to break out of this. I have to be cheery this weekend, and if I'm not I need to be able to fake it. This week, faking hasn't really worked out too well. I'm sure everyone I've had any contact with knows I'm about to start ripping my hair out or will run away to Wyoming.
I really think I'm the first and only person to ever feel like this, and I think that it will never end and Andy will never be 3 months old at this rate. Come July 9, he'll be turning 2 months old again.
Posted by laura at June 30, 2006 08:41 AM
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Ah, Laura, that sucks. Sucks, indeed. Been there, felt that, hated it. I hope it passes for you quickly, and in the meantime, be sweet to yourself and ask everyone around you to be extra sweet to you. Boo! to postpartum downward dips!
Posted by: Tina at June 30, 2006 09:25 AM
Ahhh...You are not the first and only, I can assure you. I was floored when I realized how hard taking care of a baby is. You are doing great. Really.
In case you want just a tiny bit of assvice (and if you don't I'm so sorry, can't help myself)? "Happiest Baby on the Block" saved my life. My Al wouldn't nap for more than 20-30 minutes at a time, and then, with the swaddling and a few other tricks in HBOTB, he napped for 1-2 hours. Hours, I say! Nevermind, that now, we're still trying to wean from the swaddle, but he naps. And naps are good.
Hang in there. It gets better. And if it doesn't don't hesitate to call your doctor.
Hang in there.
Posted by: Jezer at July 1, 2006 10:36 PM
I totally concur about The Happiest Baby on the Block. The swaddle is freaking priceless. Finn may hate it going in, but once he's in, he's good to go. Also, we lull him to sleep in the bathroom once he's swaddled by turning on the sink and the shower and my blow dryer. This totally hypnotizes him and conks him out.
Posted by: Tina at July 2, 2006 08:55 AM
Yes, I really need to read that book. We own it, but I haven't read past page 5. Peter read some of it, and it really helped when we first got home and didn't know the first thing about getting him to bed. I really wish all these baby books were condensed onto a cd or in a dvd format. How does anyone actually find the time to read? I'll go back to the book though, thanks for the suggestion. I had totally forgotten about it.
Posted by: Laura at July 2, 2006 09:44 AM
Dude, there's totally a dvd of The Happiest Baby on the Block. Only half an hour long. I have it - haven't watched it, but our doula said the dvd rocks.
Posted by: Tina at July 2, 2006 09:15 PM
OMG, She so totally has the DVD, but still hasn't found time to watch it. America's Got (No) Talent, however, has been watched, downloaded and watched again.
Of course, maybe she forgot about the DVD.
Posted by: Peter Kovacs at July 2, 2006 09:25 PM